So, I know it has been far too long for me to blog. There has just been so much happening and by the evening rolls around and the girls are in bed I am either picking up; loading/unloading the dishwasher; putting clothes away; or just sitting and doing nothing.
First is my sweet friend lost her little boy. One of our special Wild Things has grown wings and is now sitting high up in Heaven on a beautiful puffy cloud with WT angel Izzie watching over their cousins and keeping them all safe. It has been really hard for me, though I will never say it is anything close to what my friend is dealing with. I went and saw this sweet little man 4 days before he passed away. If you didn’t believe in being directed you just may now. For the longest time I will have names keep coming up in my mind. I will be sitting there either working on something, playing a game or watching tv and a name will just keep popping into my head. Usually I will write the name down on a piece of paper and then continue on. If it continues to come through I will write that person a little card and send it. Sometimes I get a note saying thank you, how did you know I needed those words. Just makes my heart smile to know that there was a reason for the name. Well this little boy kept coming into my mind and heart. Since we were going to be out for C’s follow-up on her broken arm I convinced hubby to take me to the hospital that he was at. I spent some special time with my friend, her husband and watched her baby sleep. Just as I was getting ready to leave I was able to catch a glimpse of little man and touch him. As I was watching him and listening to my friend talk about what was going on, I said a silent prayer over him and asked the beautiful white light to cover him and the room keeping him safe. He passed away a few short days after that visit. It hurts to know that a mother is out there not holding her child, especially after having him for over 2 years. I will never question God’s decision, but I wonder why. Why did this child, or any for that matter, get cancer? Why do children get sick and leave this Earth so early? I believe that we all have a path that is planned for us. People come into our lives and stay for a short time and then leave. Sometimes we are so blessed that they stay for a really long time and we are able to learn and grow with each other. These friends help us through hard times and rejoice in the great times. I have a few of these “old” friends and I have quite a few friends that are WT moms. These ladies have seen me through the birth of CJ, my going back to work, C’s broken arm and cast, the death of my Grandma to cancer and everything else during these almost 3 years together. I don’t know where I would be without the support these ladies all show me in their own way.
Second, my Grandpa is really sick. How sick you ask? Well sick enough that they amputated his toes a few days ago and then decided that it wasn’t enough and he just today lost his leg. There is so much fluid in his body that it has to start coming off or he could risk having organs shut down. He has a virus in his body that they are trying to “vacuum” out of him with hopes that nothing else will need to be removed. My Grandma, his wife, passed away December 15 of last year. I cannot imagine how hard it has been for him during this past year not having his companion there. He took care of her when she got sick, they celebrated life when she went into remission, then took care of her as she started to pass away. They were married for over 50 years. I believe it was 54 or so. I am not ready to lose another family member, especially around the holiday’s not to mention my birthday. My Grandma passed away 2 days before my birthday. Last year was the first year I didn’t get a birthday card from them. Sounds silly, but to me it was that they remembered me. I am the oldest Grandchild on that side. I have three cousin and one cousin in Heaven that passed away when she was 5. My Grandma passed away in December, My cousin passed away at the age of 5 on December 31. How’s that for timing. Now nothing can happen to my Grandpa in December :(
In October, C broke her arm playing soccer. She found out the hard way you don’t stand on a soccer ball as it more than likely will fall out from underneath your foot and you have a good chance on landing wrong on your arm. She was in a cast for just over 5 weeks, which included the rest of her soccer season, Halloween and her birthday. C decided to not have a birthday party with friends this year which was really hard for her as she is our social butterfly. She just couldn’t do much so she didn’t want to have one. Thankfully her Grandma D made their costumes this year and they were Little House on the Prairie girls. So easy to fit over her hot pink cast. Not quite era right, but she looked beautiful as did CJ.
Last, but not least, my boss of 1 year has decided to retire early. She has been so stressed out about things at work that she has had enough. I will be going through the process of interviewing with a bunch of others a replacement for her. I may not have always agreed with her or liked her choices, but she is amazing to work for. She is very family first which is nice with two daughters, both in some sort of school that keep you busy. She has been great about not asking me to move my hours around and has given me the opportunity to attend a couple classes for free. So while we finish up our winter catalog together and she departs right as the Winter catalog classes are going and driving us crazy I will learn just how much I know at work. I still depend on her knowledge of so many things, especially being I am still new to the position. Just so much going on. Not to mention that by the time she leaves, we will need to start getting the Spring/Summer catalog letters out to start planning that catalog. Yup, not much down time that’s for sure. I think I need a little vacation!
So that is where I am right now. Things are stressful, but we are all doing well for the most part.
